It's such a wonderful moment, all the time and effort and prayers you have put in. Waiting and waiting for this new addition to wrap their arms around you and look at you and smile. While everyone watches and smiles with wonder and amazement. (insert large amounts of sarcasm)
Oh wait, that's in the movies, real life is more like this. You are rushed to a room, filled with a bunch of people, you reach for your child who screams bloody murder clawing at the person holding him begging them not to let go. Only to keep screaming when you finally get to hold him and eventually slap you in the face because he really thinks you are horrible. Ahhh, what wonderful moments! :)
Reality, it's not always a pretty picture, but so important when it comes to adoption. Our home study update was today and part of a social worker's responsibility is to paint a realistic picture of what life may look like with the child you are waiting to adopt. Not always pretty, but very real and very necessary. Our social worker is incredible. We have had the same one since we started in 2006, so truly, she is our friend more than our social worker. She is honest and supportive, really the best at what she does. So today, she had to tell us some of the reality.
Yeah, we had thought of some things, but we had also neglected a few things. Do these things change our mind? NO WAY! Just cause us to rely on the One who brought us here a little more. Our social worker is a believer, what a wonderful thing to have in common with her! So when we talk about God bringing us here, and the fears we have, but knowing that if God brought us to Lyla, He will bring us through anything we have to face with her, tears fill her eyes. She gets it.
So, with a few more things to add to our list of things to do, and one we can cross off, our home study is on it's way to completion. Each small step brings us closer to Lyla, and causes us to fall more in love with her.
...Even if she follows in her brother's footsteps and slaps me in the face on that wonderful 1st day! :)
Oh yes. "the room"
ReplyDeleteFond memories indeed. Nothing like feeling like it and so very difficult to explain.
Praying for you guys. I am thrilled that you have completed yet another step!
I will never forget that "room" either. But sooo happy that nana and I were able to share that special time.
ReplyDeleteWatching that slap just broke my heart for both of you, but what a beautiful thing to watch the transition! Can't wait to see how Lyla blossoms in our family!
ReplyDeleteYes, it is way different than the movies. :) I'm excited to watch you go back to China to get Lyla!
ReplyDelete